Genesis 44:34 For how shall I go up to my father, and the lad be not with me? lest peradventure I see the evil that shall come on my father.
The brothers had sold their little brother into slavery, Joseph. Now Benjamin’s life is at stake. Earlier they had thought only of their pleasure and satisfaction. NOw they think of their dad. They broke his heart earlier. He had not been the same. They couldn’t and wouldn’t do it again.
How often do I do things that are for my selfish good without thinking of others or how it affects them? How often is my life lived like everything is valued by my opinion or how it affects me. I need to take responsibility. I need to live for the Lord and right. I need to consider others and live above my animal instincts of self and self-preservation.