Psalm 103:8 The LORD is merciful and gracious, Slow to anger, and plenteous in mercy.
He is full of mercy and grace. He is not an angry God at all rather He is full of mercy. Is that the God you imagine or think about? Have you been deceived to think of God in a way contrary to this verse. He is good. He is kind He is merciful.
Do not believe the lie of the devil that would make you think that God was anything different from this verse. It is so amusing that people will read this verse and then say yes, but! They can’t just see God as who the verse says that He is.