James 3:13 Who is a wise man and endued with knowledge among you? let him shew out of a good conversation his works with meekness of wisdom. 14 But if ye have bitter envying and strife in your hearts, glory not, and lie not against the truth. 15 This wisdom descendeth not from above, but is earthly, sensual, devilish. 16 For where envying and strife is, there is confusion and every evil work. 17 But the wisdom that is from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, and easy to be intreated, full of mercy and good fruits, without partiality, and without hypocrisy. 18 And the fruit of righteousness is sown in peace of them that make peace.
God really worked on my heart with this passage of Scripture. I was wondering about how much I was jealous, how much I wanted attention for myself.
If I were wise I would live with a different attitude. This hungering for position, this desiring what God has given another really convicted me. I want a bigger ministry. I want to be used more. Sometimes this is a cover for wanting to be more recognized and respected. God really dealt with my heart.
These desires are earthly, sensual, and devilish. This causes confusion and evil works in my life and ministry. It causes the same for others around me. I want to learn the lesson of this passage. I want God to continue to work in my heart. I want to be satisfied with Him. I want to stop the competition that so wants to grow in my heart. I want His wisdom. I want His work in my life and ministry. I want Him to look good and not me.
Do Scriptures ever grab you and give you a good shaking? I never want this to stop. I want Him to continue working in me.