Seeking for myself!

Jeremiah 45:5 And seekest thou great things for thyself? seek them not:

What a phrase and how often have I been guilty of this!? This is a message for Baruch from God through Jeremiah but it certainly applies to us.

We were told to seek first His kingdom. Matthew 6:33 We were told to seek the things that are above Colossians 3:1-2. I am afraid that I often want to use God and prayer to get things for me. I am so guilty of being selfish.

I want God to meet my financial need. I want God to bless my ministry. I want God to protect my children. I want God to do so many things for me.

I would never want to admit it but I want God to bless me so that you can see it and I can be recognized. How wicked am I?

I am afraid that I am a user not a glorifier. As I read this small phrase this morning I meditated on how much I abuse my relationship to God. I want Him to do so much for me.

I am afraid that as a young child I read verses and looked for verses that I could use to manipulate God to get what I wanted. I remember reading Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart. I would pray. You know that I love you and I delight in you and that I serve you. Well if you know that then you should know that this is my desire and I want you to do it. Psalm 37:4

I know you think that was a child and we know better now. Do I? I think that maybe I have only become more sophisticated at my seeking glory for myself.

God I repent, at least for now, and ask you to help me seek for you and not for me. Help me to serve you and not me!