2Kings 2:9 And it came to pass, when they were gone over, that Elijah said unto Elisha, Ask what I shall do for thee, before I be taken away from thee. And Elisha said, I pray thee, let a double portion of thy spirit be upon me.
You know this story. Elijah is about to be taken up to Heaven. Elisha is God’s choice to take his place. He has been faithful. Elijah tells him that he can ask what he will and it will be done. Elisha asks that he be given a double portion of the Elijah’s spirit.
I believe that is a good thing to ask for. Especially if you have been traveling with and serving Elijah. If you know what it means to be in that type of ministry. If you have an idea of the price you will be asked to pay. I think that Elisha did know all of that.
But then we come to us! We, those of us that are hungry to be used of God, want a double portion. To us that means that we really want God to bless us and use us. Sometimes though it would seem that God doesnâ€™t answer that prayer because we ask for the wrong reasons. James 4:3. We ask because of what we want to accomplish.
We ask because of the size of ministry that we want to have. We have good intentions but often behind those intentions is a pride problem.
I know that I have wanted God to use me many times for the wrong reason. I want others to see God using me. I want men to notice me. I want to be thought well of! Hard stuff and you can’t admit this and don’t believe what you are reading. How could Austin be so wicked-but I am.
I have to learn that the one that I need to impress is God not man. I have to learn that the one that I want to please is God. That is very true but at the same time I spend way too much time thinking about what you think about me.
Do you have this problem? Could it be that the biggest hindrance to God’s work is our desire to impress to show off? Could it be that we ask the right things for the wrong reasons?
The question isn’t what will they think of me or how will I be remembered but Him?
I do beg God for a double portion again today but I know that the way He may work that in my life may not be the way I expect or would want!
I don’t mean to be cruel but the question is “Why do you ask?” Is it a selfish reason? Is it to be noticed and thought well of man? I confess this sin and desire to be used of Him no matter what that entails today!