Me or Him!

Judges 7:2 And the LORD said unto Gideon, The people that are with thee are too many for me to give the Midianites into their hands, lest Israel vaunt themselves against me, saying, Mine own hand hath saved me.

You know the story. Gideon is going to fight the Midianites. He will end up using only 300 of the 32,000 soldiers that came out to do battle. This verse is the crux of the matter. God is reducing the number of men because He wants all of Israel, the world and Gideon to know that He is the one that will win the battle. He wants to make it impossible for man to win. He wants it to be in such a position that Gideon nor anyone in his army will have the slightest doubt about who won the battle.

This verse jumps out at me because of a problem that I have. I deal constantly with pride issues. I want to take the credit for the great things that God does in my life. Now, understand that I would never say that out loud. I would only think it in my heart.

I know that it is God but then I like to think that God did such a great work and then how that makes me look good. I am embarrassed when things do not turn out right because that means that I failed and I wondered why God didn’t treat me better.

Understand that I would never ever say this! Understand that I just have my little complaining, whining ways. Understand that I just wonder why God doesn’t do more with me (code for make me look better)! When God blesses and things go very well I give Him all the praise (outwardly).

I know that this is sin. I hate this about me. Now I have a question for you. Do you suffer from this same problem. Could it be possible that we use God to get glory for us? Could it be that we worry sometimes more about how things will make us look than what He wants?

Boy do I feel like junk right now. I know exactly what you are thinking. I had no idea the pastor was so wicked. Well you are right. I am. I think too much about me. Do you?

God says, I will win the victory, Gideon but I am going to do it in such a way that you nor anyone else will be able to take the glory.

I want to die to myself and my filthy pride. I want to live and breathe to bring Him glory. I want to serve Him in the good times and in the bad times because of who He is and not what I get out of it.

This is a very unusual devotional and I know that. It is more like a confessional. I hope that maybe some of you will confess with me. I do not want to raise up against Him. I do not want to lift me up (well I often do but don’t want to).

I want to be His servant happy with what ever He decides to do with me. What about you?

2 thoughts on “Me or Him!”

  1. wow. thank you for bearing your soul….. wow…. i’m right there with that problem…

    He who doesn’t have this problem has to be deceiving himself…

    thanks for this… i needed it more than anyone else

  2. Bro. Gardner, I am not surprised at how “wicked” you are…as we all are wicked and sin daily, but faily we have to die to the flesh and the sin of pride is very prevalent among the Christian community – of which I am a part. There is a song that says hide me behind the cross so that His glory is what people see. I will continue to pray this for my life and add you to that part of my prayer time. We should all wear shirts that say “under major construction till Jesus comes”! Praise God then we shall be like him and not as we are now!

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