Last night Evangelist David Smallwood preached at Vision. One of the things that he said put me to thinking. He said that if you are shy or timid then it can often be a thin veneer over pride-because you are worried about what people think of you.
That hit home-actually though you want believe this-I am quite the introvert. I realize that it is just a thin veneer over my pride and selfishness. I worry about what people think of me and I know that is wrong.
This put me to thinking and so I have gone to look at some verses in the Bible that I know and have preached but not lived so many times. Preaching is so much easier than living!
Rom 12:3 For I say, through the grace given unto me, to every man that is among you, not to think of himself more highly than he ought to think; but to think soberly, according as God hath dealt to every man the measure of faith.
I also am guilty of comparing myself with others. I determine how I am doing by looking at others. The sad thing is that I have preached what I am sharing with you right now. You would think that if I know it enough to preach it to others that I would live it but I am afraid that isn’t true in my life like it should be
2Co 10:12 For we dare not make ourselves of the number, or compare ourselves with some that commend themselves: but they measuring themselves by themselves, and comparing themselves among themselves, are not wise.
I ask myself really prideful questions like the following:
How did I do? What will they think of me now? What are others saying about me? How does my work compare to others?
I think wicked thoughts like:
I don’t think that they like me! They probably don’t respect me because the church hasn’t grown like they thought or I thought that it would! I don’t have anything to say that could bless them!
So you can see that I am a very wicked guy and have confessed to you. But this is kind of what God did to me in the message last night. Confession time.
I want to walk away from this sin!