Well I have been getting it hard for my little stunt Sunday night with the sound system.
In case you weren’t there you missed it. I can be a real jerk, pain, and embarrassment and especially when it comes to the sound system!
As we began to pray on Sunday night the sound system did something–it got a devil in it (not really–just teasing)! It kept getting worse. No one could figure out what to do. The hum, then roar just kept getting worse!
Then I got up in the middle of the offering message and began unplugging speakers and monitors. We finally just killed the sound system. I preached without a microphone and no recording–kind of makes you think you could be in Peru!
Well I must confess that I was wrong–got in the flesh–acted like an idiot and I apologize!
Can I explain something just briefly–I am not sure that you understand what is going on in my mind when we get to church and the preaching but I just thought I would tell you a little.
I really believe that those 30 to 40 minutes are very important. I never want to just go through the routine. I never want to just be in church to be in church– or be there because I am supposed to be. I want to make a difference with my life.
I study and I study hard and pray hard to have something from God that will help you and be a blessing to you and take us to where we should be to become all that the Lord Jesus wants us to be.
So as carnal and maybe as prideful as it might sound–I get really stressed that I am saying what the Lord wants me to say and the way He wants me to say it. I am conscious of every movement and sound in the room. I do not want anything to hinder what the Holy Spirit of God is doing.
I am sure that I take too much on myself. I am not sure that anyone else even sees the hour as importantly as I do but I really do so needless to say I can take it too personally and as too important.
I am sure that some of it is my sense of false self importance!!
But can I tell you something–I think the church services are the most important hours of our week. I think that preaching is supposed to be God speaking through the preacher to the people from the Word of God in such a way that people are really changed.
I am very passionate about the church. Not because it is my job but because it is my life. Preaching, teaching the Bible, building people, seeing people get saved, etc is what I live for.
So sometimes the extreme desire to see it done right gets out of control.
What a jerk–but I am working on it!
I welcome your comments.